Judgment is pervasive in our lives more than we realize. The Axis of Fear, our fearful thoughts, arise with us in the morning, eat meals with us, go to work with us, spend time with our family and go to bed with us as well. The Spirit of Love does the same. Unfortunately, we spend more time listening to the Fear than we do the Love.
Even though at our very core we are joined by a golden cord to Divine Love, the layer covering that core is the fear layer. It is this we must see through. It is not a solid layer, rather it is a heavy fog that seems to hang relentlessly. We feel this in our daily lives. We wake with anxiety or even a sense of sadness, and there it is present, hiding from us our true nature.
Then we go about our day. Sometimes the day flows rather perfectly with rather a hiccup and then enters one of “those” days. When judgment kicks in, our primal fear ignites as well. We are ready to defend our lives and loves. The fear for me starts in the pit of my stomach and then rises. I can actually feel my heart start to pound and race, my leg will start to tap wildly with the adrenaline, and there I go right smack in the circle of fear.
This occurred recently with some PTSD activators that arisen. Also, with having just had the COVID vaccine, I found out while in the midst of a pain challenge that those with fibromyalgia like me, may experience additional pain flare-ups. The mind can quickly initiate a story all tied up in a bow. However, I proceeded to trust my Higher Source and prescribe myself very simply a day of self-care and today, in fact, is a brighter day. Life is easier when we release the judgments.
When we are in that fear we can either continue to panic or step back and allow an Intelligence not of this world take over the reins. This is when we need to step away from where we are both physically and mentally to allow composure to return. One might have to go to another room or even to the bathroom to recalibrate.
Now follow that breath. Make the in-breath the same length as the out-breath. Counting one through five to begin is helpful. By using the focus on our breath, it helps us to slow down. The breath is always with us, it’s portable and it’s available. It can be harder to remember a spiritual prayer or lesson. If you do remember, use it as well. Or, simply as for assistance from your Divine Source. “Help me, please,” is quite appropriate and it works.
By shifting our focus from the judgment or fear, we are shifting into loving ourselves. Taking a breather, literally, paves the way for loving and caring for ourselves. It is an act of kindness that we deserve. There is no need to live the path of fear when the path of love is readily available to us.
Today, I look at this and remember how vital my dedication to mindfulness and meditation is. When I remain in the present moment as much as possible, I am not deterred by the judgment storytelling. Judgment is a perception based on fear. We look outward for the blame to the uneasiness of mind, when it is within our own mind. By starting outside of ourselves, we believe that the answer will be found in someone or something else. This never works. All the angst and projection to others with never satisfy us. We need to be brave and courageous to look within our own mind and to take self-responsibility for what arises.
It is not easy, but it will bring the peace we seek.